Knock, Knock…But it’s not her anymore….

Thursday 2nd July 2009….3more days to go….For the past two years, it was always her that would open the door for me, regardless of any condition, storm, rain, shine….etc..or vice-versa..But then, as if it was already fated, in 3 more days to come, it will no longer be her anymore to answer to my “huai ren” (bad person) call….Sometimes you really call for injustice for certain things that befall you…You suffer the consequences of those irresponsible people, those with no common sense…How brutal ah?......But it was what that happened..at the very least…haih…It was not my fault, I had eventually submitted my whole long kk list to the admin team of the “Apex” university..But somehow, don’t know how, this “brilliant” team accidentally deleted my whole long list…So obviously, and of course with a slight trauma, I had to accept the decision of not getting a place in my old hostel, prompting me to stay outside for the remaining 1 year. Yeah, of course the rent is much more than the hostel rate, double I guess but with the final year project lingering, I could not afford to walk all the way back to RST (the hostel outside our university) every night. This whole head aching episode came one week before my finals 2 months ago… and it has been a horror to me throughout these 2 months..Nevertheless, the worst scenario will be having to live with somebody new..Now who says you are definitely free from culture shock in your final year? I could still remember vividly the first day I met her…It was 30th June 2007..Usual girly kind of ice-breaking ceremony and hence the rest, was a half completed jig-saw puzzle. It was rather funny,thinking back all these while….I had thought that she was a ghost in our room..all because she was wearing a white t-shirt and had visited the washroom on that very first night. We were not that close in our first year.. Sometimes I even felt irritated because she would choose a very untimely moment to preach the Dhamma..She had even asked me to communicate with the ants( fire ants) in our room. Yup, as you can guess, I was like, uhh,ahem…”Communicate with those creatures? DIY- lah” But as the days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months, hey, we are the best buddies of all leh…Mutual understanding, candle light dinner together and of course, what we young girls like to do most, pillow talk…She had always “accused” me of teaching her how to be horny..haha..one thing I do not doubt…I can proudly say that she is one understanding and sincere friend…It is really a big and “hard to accept fact” that we will not be staying together anymore for the last one year of our degree study. And I had never ever thought about the possibilities of my kk list being deleted by the admin team…But fate could be cruel sometimes..You have the happiness as well as the suffering…Sometimes you gain, sometimes you loose..Though I acted bravely in front of her, as if nothing will change, could not help it but to sob a few times over this issue while she was fast asleep…I know very well that time could never be turned back or prolonged..In fact, these 2 months passed very quickly… as if to train my emotional intelligence over and over again..Sorry, but to certain extent only, its ok…I am a human afterall..Present a sad drama (does not have to be a Korean drama) and I will go crying out loud over it….Just want to say, I am glad to have piece up half the jig-saw puzzle with you, my dearest…Though it is only half completed, at least we had had the chance to start it from zero…With this memories, let us carry on, on our own…Though we may be far apart after this, somehow our memories will always stay unite and alive..Thanks for the memories, my dear..