Sunday, October 24, 2010

Cognitve and Emotions gone hay wired?

I am in this line now. I observe, analyse and try to heal people's cognitive thinking and their feelings. I met someone special today. Early in the morning after I gobbled down my sausage buns. He came, talked and treat me to tea. I began to have goosebumps after a while for he kept using uncomfortable words while narrating. A little shocked but still, I was calm. He moved on to a higher than normal level of asking that I give him my handphone number. The asking turned into demanding. I gave him a fake one. I thought that I was successful to slip away, but he kept insisting I give him my home address too. I REJECTED in a polite but adamant way. At the same time, I was trying to process all information linked to him. I concluded that perhaps he is currently swept by emotions, that his 3 main areas of psychology was not in balance. Was it pity for him? What was he thinking actually? Why was he acting like that? I came out of the library 2 hours later, to find him waiting for me outside. Either it wasa the library's strong aircond or I was already feeling scared of him. I felt cold and a rush of adrenalin. He asked for my address again, I said I needed to use the ladies. I went to the nearest washroom to seek refuge. Again, he was waiting like a hawk for me outside the washroom. From his explaination earlier of waiting for some Catholic students to following me to a washroom, I felt that this guy perhaps have some inner disturbance. My friend rescued me. I am still in the library, confined to the library now.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

I Am Taking A Different Road

When was the last time you got all sad and felt like no one would care for you? That no one would ever give you even a damn look? You would not admit, but it's true for the majority of people out there. They think, they feel, they react but they refuse to admit. To admit that there is a problem. To face it instead of avoiding. I am 23 years old this year. Currently taking a Masters in Counseling Psychology. My aim? Simple. To held out a hand to everyone that needs it. That needs support. That feels as if no one had cared for them. I do. And I care. Though this road is not too easy, I believe with my sincerity to help others, the path would be clear enough for me to see and walk.